Thank you so much and so glad we met each other. It is actually all great stuff and I am going to just lay low and let it all unfold. Here's to the ride ahead and excited I am. Have a great weekend.

When you are unsure, when you feel confusion that is when it is time to get QUIET and be STILL. It is not time to ask any more questions. You asked enough. Let go of having to have an answer and allow the solution to rise like bubbles in champagne.

The core of you is connected to source and as long as you are talking even if it's in your head you are making too much noise to hear the answers.

Now I believe I just found what I will share “If I just knew ONE thing”. HUGS

Second, I have no advice. Nothing to add. I think you've just ousted Abby's “why I hate bloggers” post as the best I've read in a while. It's poetic and it's close to home.

I'm ending this comment and calling you right now. But consider this my public wish of everything good in the universe to shower down upon you. You work hard enough to deserve it.

All my best buddy.

Thanks for the response… I totally hear you and I really do live life without regret. I honestly was saying 'killed me' as in that moment, not now. I look back and think, “dang, I couldn't imagine if I wouldn't have went through that time.” I always say, “Old people don't regret the things they do, they regret the things they didn't do,” and I truly believe that.

Thanks for the comment and the advice. Although it seems bad, it is all really good stuff. Just overwhelming I guess is the word for it.

Here's to a kick ass 2010 and no matter what decision I make… Here we go….

There was something odd that jumped out at me in this post. Twice you said that your decisions “killed” you. It makes me sad that you are so filled with regret.

Perhaps a way to approach your next life decision is to try to live without regret. That doesn't mean you won't make the wrong decisions — we're human after all — but you can live with the peace of knowing it was the best decision for you and your loved ones at that time in your life.

I was married to a woman who was a drug addict and alcoholic. I feel that I lost years of my life. You could say that marrying her was a decision that literally almost killed me! I stood by her for years but finally divorced her after she had an affair that shattered me.

And yet, I don't regret the decision to marry her or stick by her through her addictions. Those were absolutely the right decisions for me at those moments in my life and these heartbreaks helped forge me into the man I am today. I have no regrets at all.

Perhaps you can forgive yourself for decisions of your past and have confidence that the decisions you make from now on will absolutely be the right ones for you in that moment in time. They won't kill you, even if they don;t work out. They will help you grow.

And at the risk of being politically incorrect, when you feel so very troubled, try shutting down your mind and opening your heart to what God might have in store for you. You have such a caring heart. Obviously he is working through you! When you think you can't take it any more, let him take over for awhile. It really works.

Thanks for inviting me in. Please call me any time if you want to talk. You are in my prayers!

~ Mark